There's been a lot of things happen in the past few months.
And, now I'm back to KDU again.
I wonder what my future looks like.
Welcome back to myself!
Thursday, August 4, 2011
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
Monday, October 11, 2010
自己？
“自己”
这两个字对我来说，真的实在是好沉好沉……
做自己，真得那么容易吗？
常常听别人说：“做自己就好了！不需要顾虑别人的眼光！”
但要做到这样，又谈何容易。
我，根本就是个活生生的谎话。
一直被谎话所包装的我，又如何做自己呢？
我很想做自己，但我不能！
有些事，真的无法回头。
我很想不管一切的做自己。
但，只要看见未来的我，真正的我，我无法做自己了。
最近，也许是看到了太多，竟然触景伤情了起来。
想到一路来的我，就觉得我活得，也未免太空虚了吧。
一切的一切，就只有谎话。
真实的回忆，又有什么呢？
我真的很想你……
你为什么当初可以那么的残忍？
难道我就真的那么不值得你去爱吗？
那一句……就那一句：“No!"
让我的心，彻彻底底的碎了！
你的忽冷忽热，对我来说，是无比的残酷！
我的爱，就这样的，被你糟蹋了！
做自己？每当我听到这句话时，我会不禁的冷笑。
世上，能真的做自己的人，又有几个呢？
每一个人，都是围绕着谎言。
所谓的现实也都是谎言。
我，什么都不是，只是玩具一个。
玩腻了，就会被遗弃。
身边的人，也只是为了自己的利益。
我，对他们而言，就如工具，得到胜利的工具。
生锈了，我就会被遗忘。
一个人，栽下面具，独自在黑暗里落泪。
孱孱留下后，又把面具戴上。
原来我，什么都不是，什么都没有。
这两个字对我来说，真的实在是好沉好沉……
做自己，真得那么容易吗？
常常听别人说：“做自己就好了！不需要顾虑别人的眼光！”
但要做到这样，又谈何容易。
我，根本就是个活生生的谎话。
一直被谎话所包装的我，又如何做自己呢？
我很想做自己，但我不能！
有些事，真的无法回头。
我很想不管一切的做自己。
但，只要看见未来的我，真正的我，我无法做自己了。
最近，也许是看到了太多，竟然触景伤情了起来。
想到一路来的我，就觉得我活得，也未免太空虚了吧。
一切的一切，就只有谎话。
真实的回忆，又有什么呢？
我真的很想你……
你为什么当初可以那么的残忍？
难道我就真的那么不值得你去爱吗？
那一句……就那一句：“No!"
让我的心，彻彻底底的碎了！
你的忽冷忽热，对我来说，是无比的残酷！
我的爱，就这样的，被你糟蹋了！
做自己？每当我听到这句话时，我会不禁的冷笑。
世上，能真的做自己的人，又有几个呢？
每一个人，都是围绕着谎言。
所谓的现实也都是谎言。
我，什么都不是，只是玩具一个。
玩腻了，就会被遗弃。
身边的人，也只是为了自己的利益。
我，对他们而言，就如工具，得到胜利的工具。
生锈了，我就会被遗忘。
一个人，栽下面具，独自在黑暗里落泪。
孱孱留下后，又把面具戴上。
原来我，什么都不是，什么都没有。
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
I feel so annoyed!!!
What on earth would a guy behave like him?
Why cant he just settle things by himself?
And why cant he be just a little bit humble?
Im not a story listener and I dont have to if I dont want to.
What makes you think that I would have to listen to all your craps?
Your stories are so boring!!!
And yet you still think that you have hell of a great stories!!
OMG!!! Wake up man!!!
I mean why should I tolerate.
You have your own space and privacy.
Therefore, Im hoping the same for me from you.
But you have been interfering my life and my routine.
It makes me feel so irritated!!!
Damn it!!!
Im angry yet I've to hold my fire back!!!
5 more months to go...
Hope I do have that power to control myself!!!
=.="
Why cant he just settle things by himself?
And why cant he be just a little bit humble?
Im not a story listener and I dont have to if I dont want to.
What makes you think that I would have to listen to all your craps?
Your stories are so boring!!!
And yet you still think that you have hell of a great stories!!
OMG!!! Wake up man!!!
I mean why should I tolerate.
You have your own space and privacy.
Therefore, Im hoping the same for me from you.
But you have been interfering my life and my routine.
It makes me feel so irritated!!!
Damn it!!!
Im angry yet I've to hold my fire back!!!
5 more months to go...
Hope I do have that power to control myself!!!
=.="
Thursday, June 10, 2010
好需要。。。
怎么办呢？
最近都觉得有点怪怪的。。
突然觉得自己好孤独噢~ T_T
好需要爱情噢~
是太久没得到爱情的滋润吗？
突然好羡慕周围的朋友。。
大家都有了属于自己的另一半。。
我呢？
还需要多久呢？
真的很希望自己可以快点找到让我幸福的人。。
哎哟。。。惨了啦~
真的觉得自己失心疯了啦~
爱情快快来。。。
好需要你。。。 >3
最近都觉得有点怪怪的。。
突然觉得自己好孤独噢~ T_T
好需要爱情噢~
是太久没得到爱情的滋润吗？
突然好羡慕周围的朋友。。
大家都有了属于自己的另一半。。
我呢？
还需要多久呢？
真的很希望自己可以快点找到让我幸福的人。。
哎哟。。。惨了啦~
真的觉得自己失心疯了啦~
爱情快快来。。。
好需要你。。。 >3
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
3 Months
Fuuhhh... 3 months had gone without me noticing.
Well, lets see what had happened in this short 3 months.
Firstly, of course I did move out from my hostel into a new house nearby college. I did busy for 2 weeks just to move all my stuffs. By that time, I realised that I had hell lots of stuffs. x.x
Anyway, I decorated the room in my way to make me feel at home. I did spend quite a sum of money to make it happen but at least I was happy with the outcome. I couldn't really get myself adapted at the first night. Everything just felt so weird and awkward but I did survive the night and get some sleep. Thats all for the moving part.
Next, well, I had a roommate now. I really need time to accept the fact and adapt myself to a sharing environment. I would say that everything started quite good at the beginning though my 1st choice of bed and table had to be given out to my roommate. I felt abit sad yet just wanted to be nice, so I let him had them with reluctantly. Later on, I finally understood why they said that we'll get to know a person's true characters after you live together with them. Well, that's going to be a future story.
Furthermore, my studies were suck. They were falling apart like a falling puzzle. I tried to sort the problems out but I failed. I am seriously afraid that I would get an average result for this semester. But, I think I will give myself a try for a final shot before the exam. Class was doing good in general. Although there were some arguments, I still managed to hold my temper and did not let it escape to the surface for eruption. The stories in between will be told in its separated topics. Haha.. ^_^
Lastly, my relationship. Its complicated yet lonely but full with surprise. Actually I tried to make it sounds interesting because I myself need to comfort myself for that. Anyway, I would create a topic on my relationships. So, I guess that's all in general which had happened to me in past 3 months. What an exhausting yet exhilarating months!!!
Well, lets see what had happened in this short 3 months.
Firstly, of course I did move out from my hostel into a new house nearby college. I did busy for 2 weeks just to move all my stuffs. By that time, I realised that I had hell lots of stuffs. x.x
Anyway, I decorated the room in my way to make me feel at home. I did spend quite a sum of money to make it happen but at least I was happy with the outcome. I couldn't really get myself adapted at the first night. Everything just felt so weird and awkward but I did survive the night and get some sleep. Thats all for the moving part.
Next, well, I had a roommate now. I really need time to accept the fact and adapt myself to a sharing environment. I would say that everything started quite good at the beginning though my 1st choice of bed and table had to be given out to my roommate. I felt abit sad yet just wanted to be nice, so I let him had them with reluctantly. Later on, I finally understood why they said that we'll get to know a person's true characters after you live together with them. Well, that's going to be a future story.
Furthermore, my studies were suck. They were falling apart like a falling puzzle. I tried to sort the problems out but I failed. I am seriously afraid that I would get an average result for this semester. But, I think I will give myself a try for a final shot before the exam. Class was doing good in general. Although there were some arguments, I still managed to hold my temper and did not let it escape to the surface for eruption. The stories in between will be told in its separated topics. Haha.. ^_^
Lastly, my relationship. Its complicated yet lonely but full with surprise. Actually I tried to make it sounds interesting because I myself need to comfort myself for that. Anyway, I would create a topic on my relationships. So, I guess that's all in general which had happened to me in past 3 months. What an exhausting yet exhilarating months!!!
Return
Its been a long time since my last blog.
A lot of things had happened to me.
There were happiness, sadness, glorious and frustration.
I am going to describe as details as possible in my following blogs about my life in this 3 months after I've moved into a new room.
A lot of things had happened to me.
There were happiness, sadness, glorious and frustration.
I am going to describe as details as possible in my following blogs about my life in this 3 months after I've moved into a new room.
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