Haiz... feels not very good.
Whole body feel like a bit numb.
Feel so terrible...
I cant even walk properly...
I feel like the earth is turning around me...
Feel so dizzy...
Really awful....
Hopefully I'll get well soon~
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Mood swinging~
I don't know what is happening within myself.
Its feel very weird and awkward.
I don't like this kind of feel.
I accidentally upset my friends.
I don't really mean it but I just don't know why!
Mood swinging within me had become worse than last time.
I'm still in the progress to reveal the answer.
I hope I have the enough time to figure it out before anything goes on.
I'll do my best to control my own mood.
x_x
Its feel very weird and awkward.
I don't like this kind of feel.
I accidentally upset my friends.
I don't really mean it but I just don't know why!
Mood swinging within me had become worse than last time.
I'm still in the progress to reveal the answer.
I hope I have the enough time to figure it out before anything goes on.
I'll do my best to control my own mood.
x_x
Monday, July 27, 2009
Strange Atmosphere~
Its kinda odd tonight in the hostel~
The atmosphere was so depressing~
Its seems like something wrong had happened.
The guards behaved so weirdly.
Usually they are very friendly.
Tonight they have been very strict to everyone.
After 12am, there's no more TV.
I'm very curious to find out what had actually happened.
But, I think I might as well just keep quiet.
Well, tonight really make me depressed yet not very depressed as I knew a new friend.
She is an energetic person and very active. She is very cheerful though.
She owns a very contagious laugh which easily make me laugh.
Anyway, tomorrow I'm going to have the english class. A very exhausting yet funny class.
Its time to go to bed now. Dada~ ^^
The atmosphere was so depressing~
Its seems like something wrong had happened.
The guards behaved so weirdly.
Usually they are very friendly.
Tonight they have been very strict to everyone.
After 12am, there's no more TV.
I'm very curious to find out what had actually happened.
But, I think I might as well just keep quiet.
Well, tonight really make me depressed yet not very depressed as I knew a new friend.
She is an energetic person and very active. She is very cheerful though.
She owns a very contagious laugh which easily make me laugh.
Anyway, tomorrow I'm going to have the english class. A very exhausting yet funny class.
Its time to go to bed now. Dada~ ^^
Sunday, July 19, 2009
Sweet 18~
hehe... my sweet 18 birthday~ [18/07]
go celebrate for whole day...
day time go wif frens.. nite time go wif cousins...
Happy Birthday To Myself!!! ^O^
Thursday, July 16, 2009
Bahasa Malaysia~
Hi~ its been a long time...
Now, how come i would want to write about "Bahasa Malaysia"?
This is because i've read on an article in The Sun newspaper.
The article is an interview with award-winner writer Uthaya Sankar.The thing that caught my attention is he has been ask frequently on "why you speak so good in Bahasa Malaysia?".
Now, i've met the same condition before when i went for camps or programmes out of my school. Usually, natives people or our Malay friends even my own Chinese friends will ask me, "Wow, you speak very well in BM. How can it be?" Well... frankly speaking, i felt like tumbling when i heard this question. I was thinking why this kind of question was given to me. I mean, I'm a Malaysian. There's shouldn't be anything extraordinary about being able to talk in BM, right? But, it did happen. They felt like " Wow, a chinese can speak like a Malay. What an odd thing to see!!"
Based on the history subject i've learnt during my secondary school which was a compulsory subject, if i'm not mistaken, Bahasa Malaysia has became our national and official language since independence. So, what's so wrong or abnormal about when a malaysian like me can speak well in BM. Although i'm a chinese, mandarin is the third language for me to learn. Honestly, English is my 1st academically learnt language while Bahasa Malaysia is the 2nd and Mandarin is the 3rd. I've been mingle around with malay friends sice i was a kid. My childhood friends were Indians and Malays. I've only made friends with Chinese when i enter primary school.
What i want to say is this is what our country suppose to be. All races live in harmony. I've malay, chinese, indian, and siam friends. I can communicate well with all of them. I think its time for us to think again and deeply about the future of our country. People or society is the main ingredient in a country. Without people, there won't be any country.
Well, actually i'm quite puzzled with the language system of BM. As i recalled, the term "Bahasa Melayu" and "Bahasa Malaysia" had been vice versa converted many times during my primary and secondary education. Bahasa Melayu is the national language, then Bahasa Malaysia? If its the national language of Malaysia, then why can't it be Bahasa Malaysia? This is the question been discussed among my friends. I mean, if its called Bahasa Malaysia, its fair to everyone because we all are malaysian. But, when its called Bahasa Melayu, it sounds like the other races are not malaysian. They are just foreigners who are learning the language of natives people or the Bumiputra's.
Anyway, that's just my point of views. I would like to encourage my friends especially chinese, please master Bahasa Malaysia, for the sake of our ownselves. For students, we need excellent grade for BM to apply for scholarship or further studies in Malaysia. For non-students, we need to socialise and communicate in this country with various people. Lastly, we need to know our own national language because we are MALAYSIAN.
Now, how come i would want to write about "Bahasa Malaysia"?
This is because i've read on an article in The Sun newspaper.
The article is an interview with award-winner writer Uthaya Sankar.The thing that caught my attention is he has been ask frequently on "why you speak so good in Bahasa Malaysia?".
Now, i've met the same condition before when i went for camps or programmes out of my school. Usually, natives people or our Malay friends even my own Chinese friends will ask me, "Wow, you speak very well in BM. How can it be?" Well... frankly speaking, i felt like tumbling when i heard this question. I was thinking why this kind of question was given to me. I mean, I'm a Malaysian. There's shouldn't be anything extraordinary about being able to talk in BM, right? But, it did happen. They felt like " Wow, a chinese can speak like a Malay. What an odd thing to see!!"
Based on the history subject i've learnt during my secondary school which was a compulsory subject, if i'm not mistaken, Bahasa Malaysia has became our national and official language since independence. So, what's so wrong or abnormal about when a malaysian like me can speak well in BM. Although i'm a chinese, mandarin is the third language for me to learn. Honestly, English is my 1st academically learnt language while Bahasa Malaysia is the 2nd and Mandarin is the 3rd. I've been mingle around with malay friends sice i was a kid. My childhood friends were Indians and Malays. I've only made friends with Chinese when i enter primary school.
What i want to say is this is what our country suppose to be. All races live in harmony. I've malay, chinese, indian, and siam friends. I can communicate well with all of them. I think its time for us to think again and deeply about the future of our country. People or society is the main ingredient in a country. Without people, there won't be any country.
Well, actually i'm quite puzzled with the language system of BM. As i recalled, the term "Bahasa Melayu" and "Bahasa Malaysia" had been vice versa converted many times during my primary and secondary education. Bahasa Melayu is the national language, then Bahasa Malaysia? If its the national language of Malaysia, then why can't it be Bahasa Malaysia? This is the question been discussed among my friends. I mean, if its called Bahasa Malaysia, its fair to everyone because we all are malaysian. But, when its called Bahasa Melayu, it sounds like the other races are not malaysian. They are just foreigners who are learning the language of natives people or the Bumiputra's.
Anyway, that's just my point of views. I would like to encourage my friends especially chinese, please master Bahasa Malaysia, for the sake of our ownselves. For students, we need excellent grade for BM to apply for scholarship or further studies in Malaysia. For non-students, we need to socialise and communicate in this country with various people. Lastly, we need to know our own national language because we are MALAYSIAN.
Friday, July 10, 2009
Equal Right between Men and Women
For decades, people has keep on bring up this issue.
In our past time, men used to have higher status in social hierachy.
Men seems to dominise all the important aspects either it be the leaders of a country to the master of a family.
So, women seems to be useless in those time which they are of no value.
However, people started to oppose this unbalanced condition between men and women.
In their propaganda, they indicate that women deserved to have their own rights and should not be under look by men. They proposed that men and women should have equal right in all aspects. However, how far does this had been going on?
For me, a teenager, what i've seen is the situation is still remained unbalanced. Undeniable, women had came out to be an important asset in human development. However, when we talked about equal right, i think its never going to happen.
Why do i say that? This is because some roles hold by men cannot be replaced or done by women and vice versaly, there are roles that can only perform by women and not men. Nature has already set up its own system where men and women completed each other.
Now, maybe what i'm going to write will seem to be naive by someone, but its what i think. In school, girls always shout for equal right. But, when it comes to harsh work or exhausting work, they will use the excuse of we boys should be gentlemen. What is this crap?! I mean, when comes to issues that girls don't satisfy, they will start shouting for equal right between boys and girls. What is this suppose to mean? Business, national development, human development have to include the participation of women, but women have to be excluded from doing any hard works. This is ridiculous. If girls want to prove that they can do whatever men could, then please prove it completely. Please don't use the excuse where men should be gentlemen to escape from your responsiblities. Girls demand for equal right, so take it. We'll have to bear equal job, equal work and equal status.
This is not the matter of boys should or should not be gentlemen to ladies. Of course we boys will lend our hands when you girls need help, but it does not mean that we boys have to do everything while you girls can take your own sweet time gossiping and have your drinks.
Anyway, I know most of the girls will disagree if they read this. But, anyhow, i wish someday, things will change as i could not take it anymore!!
In our past time, men used to have higher status in social hierachy.
Men seems to dominise all the important aspects either it be the leaders of a country to the master of a family.
So, women seems to be useless in those time which they are of no value.
However, people started to oppose this unbalanced condition between men and women.
In their propaganda, they indicate that women deserved to have their own rights and should not be under look by men. They proposed that men and women should have equal right in all aspects. However, how far does this had been going on?
For me, a teenager, what i've seen is the situation is still remained unbalanced. Undeniable, women had came out to be an important asset in human development. However, when we talked about equal right, i think its never going to happen.
Why do i say that? This is because some roles hold by men cannot be replaced or done by women and vice versaly, there are roles that can only perform by women and not men. Nature has already set up its own system where men and women completed each other.
Now, maybe what i'm going to write will seem to be naive by someone, but its what i think. In school, girls always shout for equal right. But, when it comes to harsh work or exhausting work, they will use the excuse of we boys should be gentlemen. What is this crap?! I mean, when comes to issues that girls don't satisfy, they will start shouting for equal right between boys and girls. What is this suppose to mean? Business, national development, human development have to include the participation of women, but women have to be excluded from doing any hard works. This is ridiculous. If girls want to prove that they can do whatever men could, then please prove it completely. Please don't use the excuse where men should be gentlemen to escape from your responsiblities. Girls demand for equal right, so take it. We'll have to bear equal job, equal work and equal status.
This is not the matter of boys should or should not be gentlemen to ladies. Of course we boys will lend our hands when you girls need help, but it does not mean that we boys have to do everything while you girls can take your own sweet time gossiping and have your drinks.
Anyway, I know most of the girls will disagree if they read this. But, anyhow, i wish someday, things will change as i could not take it anymore!!
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
Gathering before leaving~
well... that's the picture we took at kfc~
capturing the last moment...
with all the smiles that warmed my heart~
i'm sure i won't be lonely when i'm there~
haha... its hard to say goodbye...
but you know i know...
we'll always be friends no matter how far or how long we are far apart...
Monday, July 6, 2009
Hair restriction~
Yesterday, i've heard something contradict on this issue.
Before that, i'm so curious of the purpose of setting up this hair restriction.
I always been thinking that what does the impact so huge with the hair that makes the school/ministry to set up this rule.
I think the time has come for us to review this problem.
The most common reason given by the authority is the hair restriction was set up with the purpose of avoiding students to spend too much time on fashioning with the hairstyle.
Now, here comes the question. If that would be the reason, so why is the disciplinary teachers so particular of the students hair and demand them to trim their hair frequently as to maintain the standard guide? This scene happened almost everyday in front of my eyes where lots of students being called up just because of their hairs are just a little bit over the standard guide.
Where is the rational of this action? Students attend school to study and learn. But, when they've been called up to the discplinary room or being hold by the disciplinary teachers, they are losing their time for study. So, how could this rule being benificial to the students?
Next, as this rule has been implemented, it became a burden for students. As we all know, hairs can grow rapidly. How much time does the hairs need to grow after the trim? 1 month? However, due to this rule, students have to always keep in mind that they are bounded by the rule whereby every month they have to trim their hair according to the standard guide. Is the burden, pressure and stress faced by a student is insufficient? Is this rule that important and necessary to be implemented? But, what i can see is just that, because of this rule, students had been added with unnecessary pressure. If the rule is set up to prevent students to put too much attention on the hair style, i don't see how is it working if students have to bear in mind that they are needed to trim their hairs once a month. I'm the ex-president of the counselling club in SMCC. Students had always approached me and told me that they're sick of this rule. Some of the students even play truant just to avoid their hairs been trimmed by the school authority. Is this the effect that we want from the rule? If there's nothing different with existance of the rule, then i might as well just abolish the rule. So, again, how is the rule being helping in improving the students achievement in academic and self-development?
Furthermore, i, myself, a teenager can always understand why some of the students tend to be rebellious on this issue. During this age, teenagers are in the process of translation/metamorphosis of a child towards an adult. Some of them will reach puberty where the appearance will start to change. Its normal for everyone love beauty. Everyone wish to present themseleves in the prettiest look including teenagers. So, what's so wrong of having fashioned hairstyle? Is it wrong to make ourselves look nicer? Is it wrong to turn ourselves into a beauty? We should look this matter optimistically. With a good appearance, students can actually build up their own self-confidence in facing the crowds. As we are walking towards globalisation, we needs creativity in every aspects. Why don't we see this as one of the way to promote creativity among students? Thus, the rule should stop being enforced by the school.
Apart from that, some students approached me and give me one simple question which i couldn't answer them, until now. "Why not every schools enforces this rule? I see some of the students from other school like SMK or High School, they can have their own hairstyles. Why our school has to enforce this rule while they don't?" Well... you see my trouble now. What should i answer them? They were unlucky to study in this school? Of course this won't be the answer. Students in our school have always been envy of them. The jealousy within them increased highly that resulted in the rebellious attitude of the students on this issue. So, why is this happening? How come there are schools that enforced in full forces on this rule but some don't? It shouldn't be happening this way, should it? However, nobody stand up and clear the puzzling questions in the students' mind. They'll only know how to avoid the question but never confronted it. This will never end.
Currently, i'm a F6 student. I've once ask my friends why wouldn't they choose to continue their study in F6. Astonishingly, one of the reasons is they don't want to be bounded by this sickening rule anymore. From this, we can see how had the rule affect students mind for 6 years and 5 years with a total of 11 years in elementary school and secondary school. Is this what the school and ministry hoping and wishing for to happen? The self development of students had shown negative impact by the rule. Shouldn't students being given the rights for their own appearance? Where is our human right?
In conclusion, its time for the abolishment of the hair restriction for secondary school students. We deserved to own our rights.
Before that, i'm so curious of the purpose of setting up this hair restriction.
I always been thinking that what does the impact so huge with the hair that makes the school/ministry to set up this rule.
I think the time has come for us to review this problem.
The most common reason given by the authority is the hair restriction was set up with the purpose of avoiding students to spend too much time on fashioning with the hairstyle.
Now, here comes the question. If that would be the reason, so why is the disciplinary teachers so particular of the students hair and demand them to trim their hair frequently as to maintain the standard guide? This scene happened almost everyday in front of my eyes where lots of students being called up just because of their hairs are just a little bit over the standard guide.
Where is the rational of this action? Students attend school to study and learn. But, when they've been called up to the discplinary room or being hold by the disciplinary teachers, they are losing their time for study. So, how could this rule being benificial to the students?
Next, as this rule has been implemented, it became a burden for students. As we all know, hairs can grow rapidly. How much time does the hairs need to grow after the trim? 1 month? However, due to this rule, students have to always keep in mind that they are bounded by the rule whereby every month they have to trim their hair according to the standard guide. Is the burden, pressure and stress faced by a student is insufficient? Is this rule that important and necessary to be implemented? But, what i can see is just that, because of this rule, students had been added with unnecessary pressure. If the rule is set up to prevent students to put too much attention on the hair style, i don't see how is it working if students have to bear in mind that they are needed to trim their hairs once a month. I'm the ex-president of the counselling club in SMCC. Students had always approached me and told me that they're sick of this rule. Some of the students even play truant just to avoid their hairs been trimmed by the school authority. Is this the effect that we want from the rule? If there's nothing different with existance of the rule, then i might as well just abolish the rule. So, again, how is the rule being helping in improving the students achievement in academic and self-development?
Furthermore, i, myself, a teenager can always understand why some of the students tend to be rebellious on this issue. During this age, teenagers are in the process of translation/metamorphosis of a child towards an adult. Some of them will reach puberty where the appearance will start to change. Its normal for everyone love beauty. Everyone wish to present themseleves in the prettiest look including teenagers. So, what's so wrong of having fashioned hairstyle? Is it wrong to make ourselves look nicer? Is it wrong to turn ourselves into a beauty? We should look this matter optimistically. With a good appearance, students can actually build up their own self-confidence in facing the crowds. As we are walking towards globalisation, we needs creativity in every aspects. Why don't we see this as one of the way to promote creativity among students? Thus, the rule should stop being enforced by the school.
Apart from that, some students approached me and give me one simple question which i couldn't answer them, until now. "Why not every schools enforces this rule? I see some of the students from other school like SMK or High School, they can have their own hairstyles. Why our school has to enforce this rule while they don't?" Well... you see my trouble now. What should i answer them? They were unlucky to study in this school? Of course this won't be the answer. Students in our school have always been envy of them. The jealousy within them increased highly that resulted in the rebellious attitude of the students on this issue. So, why is this happening? How come there are schools that enforced in full forces on this rule but some don't? It shouldn't be happening this way, should it? However, nobody stand up and clear the puzzling questions in the students' mind. They'll only know how to avoid the question but never confronted it. This will never end.
Currently, i'm a F6 student. I've once ask my friends why wouldn't they choose to continue their study in F6. Astonishingly, one of the reasons is they don't want to be bounded by this sickening rule anymore. From this, we can see how had the rule affect students mind for 6 years and 5 years with a total of 11 years in elementary school and secondary school. Is this what the school and ministry hoping and wishing for to happen? The self development of students had shown negative impact by the rule. Shouldn't students being given the rights for their own appearance? Where is our human right?
In conclusion, its time for the abolishment of the hair restriction for secondary school students. We deserved to own our rights.
the end is approaching...
Well... though i'm sad to say it
bt it seems tat i've come to the end of my F6 life...
i cant deny... within jz tis 1 1/2 months...
i've a lot pieces of memory~
there are happy, exhausting, annoying, foolish memories...
somehow... i actually never hate "the person" that i used to tell my friends
if they know who i'm talking about...
i dont know what is my image inside my new friends' hearts~
[hopefully its good]
bt anyway... from the bottom of my heart... i'm glad to know these people~
they somehow opened my eyes for a bigger world...
sometimes, human might forget their natural ability to suit themselves in whatever conditions~
i, myself forgot.
When i entered SMCH, i felt like i was entering a whole new world.
Its became even worse when i was the monitor of the class.
I mean, hey, i wasn't an ex-student of SMCH, how should i know all the rules and regulations, plus the school working system.
Well, here comes the role of the natural ability, i just have to start learning everything from the basic.
Though i'm in a different school, the system doesn't differ much with my previous school.
Thanks to my experiences, i wasn't afraid to hold this job.
Its just a post of "monitor"! This won't frighten me.
But, i discovered that there is some differences in the culture between the two school [CH & CC].
Mostly the behaviour of the students.
I'll have to admit that CH produced quite a number of excellent students which far more than CC, academically.
However, from the aspect of social communication between human, students in CH seems to be weaker than students in CC. The interaction between students in CH doesn't reflect the relationship where they are from the same school.
For an example, in my class, which consists of 52 person in the beginning, it seems that students from CC couldn't mingle around with CH students. I think this problem wasn't happened in this year only. From my point of view, students from CC seems to be frightened or embarassed to communicate with students from CH. There is a strange reaction between the two groups of pupil in the atmosphere. For students from CC, they stick together in a group where this phenomena is normal as they knew each other from the previous school. However, i discovered something interesting. Students from CH don't pack up in a group as what happened to CC students. They seems to have different groups and it looks like there's the presence of social hierachy where the brilliants on top and the average at the bottom.
I apologized to my classmates for using our class as an example.
The scenes that happened everyday in class just gave me the urge to unveil the secret of the phenomena. Until now, i'm still wondering what is the cause of this problem.
Although i'll be leaving soon, so soon that i might not have time to understand the reason for the problem.
However, time is the remedy for the problem. I sincerely hope that this huge iceberg would somehow break down one day and unite all the pupils in the class and even the school.
Anyway, i'll be around the school for maybe two more days then its time for me to leave...
bt it seems tat i've come to the end of my F6 life...
i cant deny... within jz tis 1 1/2 months...
i've a lot pieces of memory~
there are happy, exhausting, annoying, foolish memories...
somehow... i actually never hate "the person" that i used to tell my friends
if they know who i'm talking about...
i dont know what is my image inside my new friends' hearts~
[hopefully its good]
bt anyway... from the bottom of my heart... i'm glad to know these people~
they somehow opened my eyes for a bigger world...
sometimes, human might forget their natural ability to suit themselves in whatever conditions~
i, myself forgot.
When i entered SMCH, i felt like i was entering a whole new world.
Its became even worse when i was the monitor of the class.
I mean, hey, i wasn't an ex-student of SMCH, how should i know all the rules and regulations, plus the school working system.
Well, here comes the role of the natural ability, i just have to start learning everything from the basic.
Though i'm in a different school, the system doesn't differ much with my previous school.
Thanks to my experiences, i wasn't afraid to hold this job.
Its just a post of "monitor"! This won't frighten me.
But, i discovered that there is some differences in the culture between the two school [CH & CC].
Mostly the behaviour of the students.
I'll have to admit that CH produced quite a number of excellent students which far more than CC, academically.
However, from the aspect of social communication between human, students in CH seems to be weaker than students in CC. The interaction between students in CH doesn't reflect the relationship where they are from the same school.
For an example, in my class, which consists of 52 person in the beginning, it seems that students from CC couldn't mingle around with CH students. I think this problem wasn't happened in this year only. From my point of view, students from CC seems to be frightened or embarassed to communicate with students from CH. There is a strange reaction between the two groups of pupil in the atmosphere. For students from CC, they stick together in a group where this phenomena is normal as they knew each other from the previous school. However, i discovered something interesting. Students from CH don't pack up in a group as what happened to CC students. They seems to have different groups and it looks like there's the presence of social hierachy where the brilliants on top and the average at the bottom.
I apologized to my classmates for using our class as an example.
The scenes that happened everyday in class just gave me the urge to unveil the secret of the phenomena. Until now, i'm still wondering what is the cause of this problem.
Although i'll be leaving soon, so soon that i might not have time to understand the reason for the problem.
However, time is the remedy for the problem. I sincerely hope that this huge iceberg would somehow break down one day and unite all the pupils in the class and even the school.
Anyway, i'll be around the school for maybe two more days then its time for me to leave...
Sunday, July 5, 2009
1st post~
finally...
i've set up a blog for my own~
well... tis will be replacing my old diary~
Welcome to the digital world... ^^
i've set up a blog for my own~
well... tis will be replacing my old diary~
Welcome to the digital world... ^^
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