Its Time for Me to Change

Today, I had been given the opportunity to rethink my way of doing things.
One of my friends, Apple had said something to me which had made me fell into a serious thought.

She said, "Now, I know you are very efficient. You could finish things in a very fast pace. But, please think of others. Maybe others are not as efficient as you. Maybe you should follow the others' pace rather than yours."

Frankly speaking, at that moment, my emotions overwhelmed my rationalism. I was annoyed by her statement at that moment. However, as soon as I chilled down, I started to think again the statement she had thrown on me. Maybe the time has come for me to change my way of doing things.

I think I better start learning how to take order from others. Maybe a long term of holding high positions during high school had made me became used to that kind of position where I'll be the one to give order and decide the whole game.

The statement threw on me seriously created a huge impact on me. I don't know how many persons did I irritated but I really do hope that I still able to make U-turn and set things right.

Well, I will train myself to receive orders better and try to ignore those jobs which are out of my responsibilities coverage. After all, maybe that's what everybody is hoping. Yet, I will never let my performance and image being destroyed. I'll do my best to ensure an eternal triumph.

New Year

Once again~
I've returned to this realm of my heart.

Honestly, I don't believe in this new year resolution thing.
I think its crap! People always has this resolution but how mnay did actually achieve them?
I prefer to set a goal for myself and struggle to achieve.
I think the enjoyment is much greater than achieve that resolution crap!

Anyway, in this 2010, I just hope that my studies go smoothly.
Anything good please do happen. Anything bad but not major one could also happen just to give me a reminder. I wouldn't want to have a huge turnover in my cuurent life.

WoHoo~ I'm Home....

Finally, I'm home.
After all this time, I can stay at home for at least a month.
I'm very happy.

I could go hanging out with my friends.
I could eat a lot of super delicious nice stuff.
I could play with my little cousin Jocelyn.

Anyway, I super delighted to be back!!!!
WoHooo...............!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ^^

I gave up

I've tried hard enough to not jealous.
But I failed.

I really couldn't find a reason or source for me to continue believing that someday you and me will be together.
This dream is falling apart.

I gave up.
I really had given up.
I'm sorry.

Let just be friend.

It just won't work!!!

我试了又试！
我不想那么快放弃，可是我到最后还是放弃了。
我与你，有着天壤之别，根本不可能在一起。

我们俩来自于不同世界的人。
你的观念与我不同，待人处事也不一样。
我觉得，就算我百般的对你迁就，忍让都好，我们还是没办法在一起的。

原因非常的简单。
虽然我不介意，但我还是会吃醋。
我没办法控制你的自由，但你也没控制你所拥有的自由。
这造成了两败俱伤的后果。
你觉得为难，我觉得委屈，那又何必呢？

我从喜欢你那一刻开始，从没停止过希望与你在一起的那一天的来临。
但，现在的我，盼不到那一天的来临了。
I don't know how should I say this, but us... It just won't work!!!

我很高兴在这里认识到你。
也很庆幸自己曾经爱过你。
不过，10/12/09 当我从batu回来之后，我们之间就只剩下友情了。
纯纯的友情，再普通不过的友情罢了。

我们的约定，取消吧！

那晚，我对你许下了承诺。
我们的约定，就在我们俩的手指纠缠下成立了。
但我，现在想告诉你，我们的约定，取消吧！

你的吻，是我朝思暮想的梦。
我们的约定，让我的梦实现了一半。
我感到无比的愉悦，就像我已经实现了已久的愿望。
但我，现在已不想这个愿望被实现。

对你许下的承诺，我会办到。
我不会让你的父母失望的。
我知道，他们对你的期望高，你也不想让他们失望。
答应了你，我就会设法日阿昂你过关。
但是，至于我们之间的约定，就算了吧。

我很怕，好怕，我无法实现我们的约定。
我害怕，当我吻你的时候，心已经死了。
我曾经认为我可以，可以睁一只眼闭一只眼。
最终，我还是失败了。

人类的嫉妒心，是个无比强大的力量。
我还是吃醋了。
我嫉妒，嫉妒你与他的暧昧。
我恨，恨你的随和，恨你的热情，恨你的暧昧眼神。

原本的我以为，忍一时风平浪静，退一步海阔天空。
但我错了。
无谓的执着，带来的，只有无比的伤痛！
所以，我们的约定，取消吧！

Your return

I was so happy the night before your return.
Though I was astonished by your call during the midnight, I still felt happy because you were telling me that you were coming back.
That night I slept with smile and sweetness.

Your return woke up me up as your contact ringtone came into live.
I picked up the phone and there you were.
Your voice was so energetic and eaagerly to enjoy the day.
I was expecting a great day being together with you.
That was what I wishing for at first.

I thought this would be our two person moment.
Yet, once again, I was wrong.
So, off we went to 1-U.
I couldn't hold myself together and be happy that day.
I didn't want to be there somehow.
I just felt like I'm the odd one there.
But, I knew that you'ld be upset if I would just say that I want to go back.
Therefore, I stayed.

Whenever I saw you, I just wanted to hold your hands.
Whenevr I saw you, I just wanted to kiss your lips.
Whenever I saw you, I just wanted to say "I love you".
But no matter whenever or however, I wouldn't have the chance to do all these.