?? I don't understand ??

I don't understand.
What is she trying to tell me?
Is she giving me the sign that we are impossible?
Is she telling me to stop hoping for something more than friends between me and her?
I don't know.
I'm eager to clear it out.
But, in the meantime, I'm afraid.
Afraid of the cruelty of reality.
What if she said that she and I are impossible?
What if she said that she don't have any feeling towards me?
What if she said that she felt uncomfortable of me and want me to stay away?
If these happen, then what should I do?
Should I cry?
Should I laugh?
Should I just stay away?
What am I going to do?
I need some guides now...